Sunday, July 18, 2010

lost and confused.

lately i haven't really been doing much, and now that i think about it, it's starting to bug me. i want to do something, like get a job or go read or anything meaningful to get out of this slump of nothingness i'm in. like seriously, i doubt God meant for me to do nothing this summer. but what's there for me to do? i'm just simply... lost.

also, i know i've chosen to go into massage therapy and i don't have any doubts about doing so either, but i do worry. worry that i'm not ready for this step of my life yet. worry that i won't be ready to take the step to begin my college life. worry that things won't turn out well for me. and all this worrying has me confused as to whether or not i made the right decision to get into college, i know part of me does want to for the freedom and adventure college would bring, but am i mentally ready for it? i'm... confused.

what am i going to do with myself? i've only a month before i head off to the next step of my future...